What God has done

He's faithful...more faithful than one single person has ever been to me in my 38 years. He doesn't leave me, he's patient, kind, merciful and loving beyond comprehension....and He see's all my dirt.

1. Rescued me from depression- in addition rescuing me from an addiction to antidepressants as a result of lifelong depression. 7 years strong and full of Hope :) :)
2. Rescued me from poverty. 11 years ago i was a single parent with 2 kids, no family around, and no child support. I prayed even before i was a full on believer for God to get me back to college and out of poverty. Today I have money in the bank and a bachelors degree in a field that's always hiring, I own a home, and a car that has never broken down...4 years strong on the minivan!!!
3. Divorce- I went through a terrible divorce...He walked with me and talked with me....encouraged me and filled me with Hope....even when the church frowned on me....He knew me, He knew my situation and He loved me through it...Thank-you God.
4. He introduced me to Jeff- Jeff flew in to help me when I was going through one of the most difficult years of my life. 2 years later, he put a rock on my finger...He's Loving, patient, kind, level headed and GOOD to my kids...He's not perfect, but he's perfect for me :)

Sanctification

I'm stripping and cleaning my kitchen vinyl floor this week as the kids just went back to school. Its a big job, it requires me to scrub dirt, grime, and pieces of debris that have embedded themselves into my light colored floor over the last few years. After Ive scrubbed it until my hands hurt, I wipe it clean as I possibly can before I seal it with a polish....I don't want to lock in any of that grime I just worked so hard to get off! The polish protects it from future grime and debris being able to embed itself so easily in the months ahead. Because the job is so big and because I wanted to see the impact it was making I decided to do it one spot at a time, starting small then finishing big!

This season of my life Gods doing a number on me...bringing me through a new area in my life that needs to be sanctified. I don't want to do it, Ive struggled with God over it for the last several years and here I am finally putting down my sword and submitting. I guess that's called obedience in Christian circles. I realized what a hypocrite I've been....I stand firm on Gods definition of marriage and believe that God can change desires. I'm outspoken about Gods ability to change the desires of people with same sex attractions. I myself don't share that struggle.... But I definately struggle with my own sexual desires. For years and even now I commit sin by having sex outside of marital vows.... Yet God tells me to preserve sex for marriage....but I have not listened!!! I have been the worst of hypocrites, not practicing what I preach. Forgive me for being so complacent about my own sin but pointing out the speck in your eye.

So Im embarking on another section of my life where God desires to sanctify me from my own desires and fill me with His. Thank you God for bearing with me...thank you for new mercies every single day. And how fitting that while he's walking me through this process that I'm in the midst of a white floor restoration. What a parable he provided me in my mundane daily life as a stay at home mama. I can visibly see the difference in the before and after, and I'm exciting to see it once again in my own life when He completes another section of sanctification in my life. And when he's scrubbed every piece of debris and grime from years and years and years of sin, he'll put His protective sealant over my freshly scrubbed heart to protect me in the days ahead. What a good God He is!

My body is a temple of the Holy Spirit.