If my mind had a tape recorder

Is it a full moon? i must check. There are days like today where my mind is racing with thoughts that could be the subject of dozens of blog posts. As I rush around, glancing at the glowing time on the oven, on my phone, on the computer screen as I walk by, i am reminded each time of all the things I have yet to do  today before the boys arrive home from school and how everything I am pondering, being enlightened with on this splendid day will likely be drowned out and nearly forgotten once the chaos begins in approximately 1 hour and twenty minutes. Its days like this that I really wish my mind could script my thoughts for me, maybe wire the brain directly to my blog post(is google working on this?)...i could have a hit blog!!, write best sellers in these moments!! Please, God give me these same clarities and imaginative realizations on another day...these exact same ones so I may record them for my children and my childrens children to read one day when they ponder who I ever was and the things I wish i could pass on to them.

One thought, I want to live as God showed me a few years ago at a campground in West Olive. He awoke me late at night, brought me to this magnificent moon hanging over the crashing waves of a dark Lake Michigan beach at night while my boys lay sleeping on gravel in a tent not far away...in a park truly meant for rv's but willing to allow us tenters to stay. God brought me to this enormous ...and one of the most beautiful moons I have ever seen and said to me "Shine like the moon" ...show your blemishes and the reflection of the light (from the son)  which both exposes those blemishes and beautifies them. I have much to be ashamed of in this life. I pray for the courage to be outspoken and acknowledge my own failures and deviations from the Word of God (repenting of all and accepting the marks they leave). I pray that no matter what shame and/or accusation of hypocrite I may receive, I continue to accept those claims, especially hypocrite because I know it to be true.

Thoughts on deception: The earth is filled with deception...layers and layers of lies so thick that the standard as I see on this earth(on this winter 2014 day) is to believe the lies as truth and mock the ones who shine their God given lights through the dark. The dark is deceptively shown as glittering  rainbow love (don't fall for it precious ones!!)...Grace is used to twist truth...and by self professed believers!(don't fall for them precious ones!!) I myself had been deceived by the lies of this world so  many times which is why Jeff likely claims I am an instant skeptic today...the result of a truth seeker living in this world. The world is deceptive, we can deceive ourselves. i know I can!! Seek truth always...it may not be easy...you most likely will be mocked, you will seem strange..but its worth it. Seek truth and give grace...when its too difficult, step away and commune with God. This verse got me through my last week in various debates with a small group of deceivers wishing to tear down the cross in Grand Haven and start on all out assault on all "public" displays of Jesus:

" Let no one deceive himself. If anyone among you thinks that he is wise in this age, let him become a fool that he may become wise." Corinthians

Know that if you believe you sound strange outside of a bible believing group, if you literally take God at His word...you are a strange light shining in the darkness...the powers that rule darkness have one goal...to snuff you out. And remember that humans become puppets of darkness unaware of who they are even serving....and their intentions are believed to be good, even to themselves! I was once a child of the dark and I believed I had values...and i did. but my virtue had no compass.  Satan uses pride, intellectualism, recognition from the world and accolades from society to trick people. Deception is thick, you have one weapon...truth. You have one strength...God, you have full access through the Holy Spirit, so use it...and remember to be kind.