walking in the dark

Even though I know the light is better, sometimes I choose to walk in the dark. I can be such a silly wayward girl. There's a bumper sticker on a car at my boys daycare that reads "there is no greater sin than ignorance". I couldn't disagree more...the greatest sin is when you know the truth, you've walked in the light, then you choose to hide in the dark, like you think God won't notice you. Every time I do it, I find myself crying out to the Lord to pick me up. The dark is a weary lonely place and when we're in it, we miss the beauty around us.
I had a night where I was out walking...in the dark....I was tired and heavy hearted and just started calling out for his light and repenting of my own foolishness. The Lord sent someone on a bicycle with a bright spot light fastened to the front of his bike...right past me...I just smiled and marveled about how He uses everything....this man on the bike was him moving ahead of me...with a light! he was getting farther and farther ahead of me and I prayed Lord, how can I keep up with you?? you're moving too far ahead of me. At that moment, the man...on the bike..with the light...he stopped. He stopped for a minute, went across the street to his house with the brightest flood lights my eyes have ever seen and he parked his bike. There's hope :)