Own the mess. Sometimes I start telling people some of the stuff from my life. The marriage to Jon that ended with his heroin addiction and ultimately his triple stint in the slammer, raising kids as a single parent in poverty...people immediately try to sympathize and are empathetic like I am a victim of unintended consequences. Of course, the consequences weren't intended, BUT I sold Jon illegal drugs when I met him, a twenty year old foolish hearted Jen I was...go figure he ended up being a drug addict. Most of the trials and suffering I endured during my life were the result of my own poor decisions. Yes, I could choose to go back to my childhood and blame my parents and cite the brokeness there for my bad judgement as a young adult...but what good does that do me?! Who doesn't have problems growing up??! Lets own our actions that lead to suffering, in one way or another most of us are responsible for tragedy in our lives. If you don't own it...you can't repent of it...you won't change from it. To place yourself in the victim camp is a place of bondage...we're always pointing the finger at another as the cause when in reality we have our own guilt in the equation. Want change, want to move on? Own the mess, repent of it...and live.
Jen
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